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Name: Daniel Country: United States State: Georgia Metro: Valdosta Birthday: 12/27/1984 Gender: Male
Interests: I am interested in a lot of things..like pennies on the ground and the relationship between a star in space and that of a starfish. Things tend to go from there. Expertise: I am an expert at Stage Ninjitsu. I will own you. I can outrun a tazmanian devil and I know how to take down a blood thirsty gorilla-cyborg...cause I've done it. Occupation: Student Industry: Entertainment
Message: message meEmail: email me AIM: Thatkidulove MSN: kryp2003@hotmail.com Yahoo: kryp2003@yahoo.com
Member Since:
1/15/2006
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| Tonight has been a very interesting night, at least if your lucky enough to be one of the people inside my head [steven, im looking at you]. For starters its raining outside and the rain has always helped me relax and do an introspective analysis of myself. I went for a walk around my complex in the rain listening to my iPod and just thinking. Mostly about nothing inparticular at first, but than all these problems that bob and weave at the edges of conscience incessantly starting coming to the surface and the biggest question is what am I going to do with the next year of my life. Who and where do I want to be with. For the first time in my life im able to look past just who will I be with and start to focus on me. And let me tell you thats a can of worms like whoa.
I know im tired of being scared of everything, I want people to see me for who i am and not the shy guy wall I always put up in order to protect myself I guess. I have a couple of new friends, Chad and Dylan, who are helping me break out of the fake me mask I put on years trying to cope and forgot I was wearing. Of course the same anxieties that always nag at me are still there, am I boring them, am I making a bad impression, should I just go, what should I say or should I just keep quite, what if they dont like me and they are just being polite. I have to take that voice out of my head, but its like an old song it just keeps playing again and again.
I dont know how Im going to get the person I want to be, but I know Im ready to start trying to seriously get there. The first step I suppose is learing to open up and risk the stings of rejection but i think I'll make it though this transitional period a better person it I can just keep a positive spin on everything in my head. | | |
| You should know that when Thursday started i had $6 and only that to my name. Its important to the story as it unfolds and why Im kinda pissed currently.
I wake up late, lets say around 11. I go downstairs and find my roomie has taken the trash bag out of the can and laid the bag infront of the cabinet untied of course and no new bag in the can. I can only wonder why he does this, as this isnt the first time I have come downstairs to discover this particular sight. So I gather the the loose trash stacked nearby and take the trash out. When I get downstairs I notice my hand is covered in a white streak. At the BASE of the stairs is a sign saying the walls have been painted, yay. I spend the next half hour trying to get the paint off my hand. My door is also covered in speckles of paint and a sign is taped saying wet paint. Silly me, not checking my door for new signs. I figure lunch is in order and some T.V. Well noooo, i cant watch T.V. because the construction company in fromt of my Apts. has dinked the cable again so none of that for awhile until they get it fixed. I play Mass Effect instead, i get two hours into it and the game freezes. Did I save, no of course Im on the Citidal with the most badass weapons money can buy. im untouchable, except of course from scratches. To Count. F*cK Painters, F*cK Construction, F*cK Mass Effect I get to work and am greeted by an ungodly pile of dishes stacked on the table. In addition the sinks have been filled with pots and pans. Apprently the morning crew didnt figure the dishes needed to be done to day. So I go get the mats I need to throw on the floor where Im stopped by not one lizard but two lizards. Im not to ashamed to admit im scared of lizards and frogs, I just am. So im none to happy to see two of them lounging on the items that I need. [Mats are kept outside, just to mention] So I try to find the manliest way to make the lizards go away with drawing to much attention to myself or my irritional fear. So of course I have to ask the waitress using the broom if I could borrow it real quick to chase away some lizards. That was fun. Country girls think its hiliarious when a guy is scared of lizards, btw. Now what reallt sucks about my job is that when the cooks get backed up I have to go help. So I get thrown on the fryer, mind you I Im still not to sure how to cook and I have to ask alot of questions and the cook mumbles and I never know exactly what he says on the first try. So of course whatever headway I had made with the dishes is undone as they have been restacked just as high while I was stuck in the kitchen doing a cooks job. FYI no cooks ever think they should step foot in the dish pit unless its to rinse a rag out, so I in turn get no help and have to do two peoples works. To Count. F*cK Morning Crew, F*cK Lizards, F*cK The Country, F*cK Extra Work Needless to say at 11 37 when I get out of work I want a beer. 2 $ will get me a big bear and I figure I could deal with that. I texted my best gal pal earlier to make sure Dos was in the cards tonight. It was so glee, I have someting to look forward to despite the bullshit. On the way I call the gal pal and she says get to Dos everyone is here. I have to stop at the house and change clothes, cause they get soaked in the course of rushing thru dishes. My dude friend calls and ask me if im going to Dos, I say yeah Im on my way. Cool. Now Im really looking forward to seeing all my friends at Dos and relax with a beer. I drive to the bar, park, pay the door man the 2$ dollers cover, and get my hand stamped, which I hate, and go in and look around. No one is there. Cue the phone. "Hey man, we are all at RumRunners" Well damn that is the other way around. But I want to see my people. I already gave up on drinking cause I figure im about to pay another cover, but maybe I can bum. I dont like too, but its my only avaible option. So I go park my car and walk the way to rumrunners. Two Problems, Cover is 5 $ im short, and you have to have a collered shirt to get in. Cue the Rant. WHY THE FLYING FUCK DO I NEED A COLLER SHIRT TO GET INTO YOUR SHITTY BAR. WHAT PART OF MY DAMN ATTIRE IS DIRECTLY LINKED TO MY ABILITY TO CONSUME ALCOHOL. YOU HAVE A BAR IN A COLLEGE TOWN YOUR NOT THAT DAMN SPECIAL GET OVER IT. IM NOT GOING TO GET DRESSED UP TO GET DRUNK. FUCK RUMRUNNERS. Also: F*cK Cover Charges. Please note no F*cK U's are being given to my esteemed friends and pals. Yes, i think its kinda shitty you left the place you told me to meet you at knowing I was on my way there. Yes I am upset about it. But It really wont matter a day from now and you all are usually pretty cool otherwise so i still love you all bunches. | | |
| It really shouldnt have taken me five whole minutes to figure out to write a new blog, i mean geez people a user interface tutorial would have been nice since your springing all this one me at once here boo xanga. Okay so if any one still post here leave me a comment and I'll get back to you in good. | | |
| Well guys and gals its November, So I guess I should update and at least keep this going at the very minimum on a monthly basis. October was an interesting month I suppose, I lost some people in my life but Im picking myself up and continuing on. I might have even become a stronger person because of it, who knows. Only time will tell. I finally got a job, i hope....the interview is on monday but the nice lady said she wanted to get me in as quickly as possible so Im pretty sure the job is mine for the taking, which makes me happy in the wallet :) I have a new character and an actual story I want to tell about something I feel strongly about, so maybe something good will come of it. Im excited about it and once things begin to happen with it, im sure you all will be super excited about it too!! It will be the BEST THING EVER IN THE HISTORY OF EVERYTHING!!!!! Well that is all I got for you guys at the moment so I will bid you all fair weather and good company and see you on the trail. (thats my new thing, see you on the trail...what do you thing?) | | |
| Hey guys whats up nothing much here just chilling well later peace | | |
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